Yes, just like the tittle. This is the last chapter to conclude everything, is not gonna continue anymore even though deep inside me, I hope it will.

After the patch back, the situation is similar to a doctor trying her best to save the patient. Yes for this scene I'm the doctor, after analysis the problem, tried research, to inject whatever drugs I could find, to keep a look out on the heartbeat rate and if needed CPR is carried... Till the end, then I realised all this while I'm doing all this on a DEAD FISH, its heart rate is running at a flat rate all this while.

All the nurse around me been reminding me, telling me the facts saying

I replied "I believe if I put in hardwork, it will know, I could change, I'll turn it into a human! Just give me a chance to try."

Obviously, how could a fish turn into a human? Is totally ridiculous! But at that point of time I put hope and believes in it.

But I believes on it ended up this part came in.

I got shock, why are you saying this to me? Here I am, putting so much effort in you. Why would you said that to me? Who gaves you the rights to said that? What the fuck get into your mind?

I thought may be something is wrong with me, so I begged for a second chance. (at the same time I felt so stupid that I didn't do anything wrong but why would I have to go through something as if I did something wrong that disappointed it?) but I don't mind putting down my pride for love.

Yeap, till the end I still failed to turn it into human, I prove myself wrong (which it had been always like this) but I think I tripped over with glory and honor. I gave my very best to save the fish, till the limit which i don't believe, I, myself could stand it.

At least, I could give myself a pat on the shoulder telling myself "Ariel, you did a good job"

Overall is its loss of giving up its life, its loss of having someone who would willing to tried to give in even though ridiculous criteria was made (which to me is impossible that I would do that.). Other than my loves, effort and cared, I'm so sure that I didn't loss anything.

From the start I didn't received care and concern. The fish is doing things that any other fish could do it better (way better and of coz I deserve better treatment).

Anyway till this last part of it, I'm proud to say

Last but not least, I think that the fish gave me a wonderful experience, it taught me lots of stuff is good for my future, he taught me how to differentiate what's being love and the way I want my future boyfriend to treat me. The way I want love my future boyfriend.

After this, I realised what is important is not about who dump who but is about who loss the most.

Love is blind, now I see things differently I'm cleared with what I want and what I see.

P.S I would really wanna thank all the nurses around me

and many more.. I'm sorry if I didn't named you guys out, but confirm you did some part of it on helping me get over. :)

Sincerely,

Ariel G Canvas.